so we are sitting in an empty house that echoes too much. my hands are really dry from all the scrubing i have been doing tonight...never knew how much the kids had crayons in their hands as they were walking past the walls :D i can not quite believe that we are coming this close to leaving. my stomach says "this is too much" my head says "are we sure about this? cuz i'm already wiped out" and my heart says "keep going...the best is yet to come" ...so which one do i listen to? gotta choose the JOY...gotta keep going...gotta listen to my kids as they keep having fun with pretty much nothing around the house. but paul did say to me today after i was explaining to him that he needed to share his stick, "but mom, i don't want to share anymore cuz if i let go...i don't get it back." and my heart sank for him. he feels all this too...and i just hope they don't start hording "things" cuz everything is temperarily gone. i guess i am mostly sad to leave this place. it has been good here. it will continue to be good here. and our kids love it here. but they adjust quickly so i am going to try to keep up with them. play like them. yell like them. i wish i could sleep like them, but that will come too! don't know where i will be the next time i write...but right now i am at 16712 Reeves Ave, Bellflower, Ca 90706.